I have been reading other people's journals about our great friend Saru. She needs all of our help with her commissions!

Back on my side, recently things have fallen into the depths of despair. I have been going through a lot. I miss my friends as I have mentioned in previous journals. We are so far apart that I dont even know what anyone really looks like anymore. No one talks to me that often if at all. I try to go on but then other things just decide to sucker punch me until I am a mess on the floor.

I have had my son in day care for a while now so I can focus on my school work that I do over the net. All the sudden they call me and tell me that I have to reapply for the assistance. I cant qualify because I lost hours at work and my son's father stopped paying child support.

I am already short on money when my satellite company charges me for 2 months of service for no reason.

My emotions have been a complete wreck and I keep snapping at Izzy, my fiance, and I dont mean to.

I have been feeling physically sick a lot and no money for a doctor to get fixed. I get horrible migraines, dizzy spells even when sitting or laying down, and lack of appetite. That being said.. I ballooned in weight earlier this year and am trying to work it off, even though I am sick...

I have no way to fix any of my current problems... and I will be shocked if anyone has lasted through this whole entry.

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